SUBMITTED BY: Andrea G.
DATE POSTED: Mar 11, 2009
Love I thought I had lost
It was earlier this year at the end of a 4 year tumultuous relationship that I happened to run into a person on-line that I had met two years prior (but didn’t know it). It was a slow start, but grew quickly into a meaningful, monogamous and faithful relationship. We did everything together and my kids grew to love him. Everyone agreed that this was the one.
Then, his aunt died, and a week later, another aunt died. In the midst of sorrow and pain, he said he needed his space. I reluctantly gave it to him, but the pain became unbearable. I had to plug in The Secret just to get me through those moments when my mind was repeating negative thoughts. I rewrote my story in my journal. I continued my vision board. I kept our pictures. I prayed. And two months later he texted me to tell me how he really felt. That he loved me and hadn’t realized it in all of his grief. Now he’s talking marriage, and I know that it’s real.
I used to always feel that this was the one area that I had no control over. I felt helpless, as my thoughts told me that “I couldn’t get what I wanted. No-one is going to find true happiness”. But I had no other choice. I loved me and knew I deserved to be happy. I just sent out a different signal and drew him back to me. I had won what I thought I lost. I loved me first by changing my thoughts before they could become my reality. Now only positive things have manifested.
